Marta
This is for you because we were hanging out together while I was processing some of the thoughts – and because you were encouraging. But I will not be offended if you are not interested or do not read it or do not take it home. Still, I think you will enjoy some of it
It [the prologue] is just a summary of the main document – Journey in Being. It represents a huge advance and I think its great – compared to where I was but not necessarily in comparison to what is possible or what other people have done. I am actually a little surprised and feel a lucky that it all worked out so neatly – a virus can become a whale and I think / feel I have proved it. But, anyway, at least a growl if not a roar… It is all on the Internet website where I also put in a huge effort this past year, improving everything important and making it all look professional. In the main document, Journey in Being, in addition to what is described in the prologue, I collected together many of the ideas that have been important to me and that were scattered in many documents and because the ideas interact everything got vastly improved. I’m getting more recognition – but not [yet] the kind or amount that I want. I showed the prologue to Sean Egan [he’s back in town, working at the open door clinic in Arcata, and he and his girlfriend are doing as well as he would like – he would like to get married] who liked it a lot and he said that I had shown him stuff before that he did not understand what or why but that this is different in that the purpose and meaning are clear to him
It is the end of the ideas phase of my project – the end was in the middle of July after 9 months of intense work that started with some great ideas I had while backpacking last fall. Sure, improvements are possible and more can be done but it is good and it is enough to set up the experiments phase where I want to become rather than just think. I know that working at Sempervirens is not right for what I feel I need to do
So I am a little at loose ends since I am not allowing myself to work on projects [that would mean more years at SV] but I’m not sure how to go about making changes – and a little worried about whether I will be able to do so. But it’s also kind of good waking up and not feeling that I have to work on projects and being able to be less disciplined for a while and just do fun things
Love,
Anil